some random thoughts flowing through my mediocre mind

It’s been weeks since I’ve gone to work. I wish my internship at K2 would still be valid when I go back next week. I ditched work for 2 weeks to finish my final projects and shit. It’s finals week and I can’t afford to fail my finals on the 3 subjects I have this term. Na-uh, no can do. If I fail this term, it’s going to be 1 term added to my 3 terms-to-go-till-I-graduate mantra. Hehe. Oh well, I’m doing my best to fix my biz plan (with the help of Mama Adette and Tito Archie ofchorz!) cos Monday is D-DAY. Goodluck to my defense and my guts come April 12. Gah.

So how have I been doing lately? Lets see..

• Physical = not good. and by that I was talking about my skin cos I am burnt to bits due to that 30-minute soak up the sun thing I did at Zambales. Other than my toasted skin, BLOOMING DAW AKO NGAYON. uyyy. Maybe cos of the change of skin tone I had. Hehe. Or maybe cos I’m 22! wahahah!
• Mental= err..so-so. I have been in my very weirdest lately (as if that’s new to you guys) GAGA AT LOKARET PARIN. Amen to that.
• Emotional = this can go right down the drain. Why? cos I’m still scared to be attached to someone. (although I think I’m starting to be and yes, there is someone. I guess?) Blame my being IMPULSIVE for this emotional hell ride I’m now aboard to. It’s not that I’m depressed about it. It’s just, not what I thought it would end up to be. I’m getting bored. There, i said it. See?! Just goes to show how IMPULSIVE my thoughts are with regards to this thing I’m talking about. I’m happy, yes. but there are times wherein.. AGHH.. BASTA!
• Financial (hehe I just want to add this up, foo’) = VERY NOT SO EFFIN GREAT. Hehe. I burned a fist-size hole in my pocket thanks to my lazy ass wanting to ride a cab to and from school everyday HAHA! and all that’s left of me is something to make my cellphone happy. (in Layman’s term, PANGBILI NG LOAD) Hey! at least I survive my college life everyday and it’s not like I have a boyfriend to spoil. Hehe.

Just something I thought you guys should know. Btw, I’ve recently figured out the Macro function of Niko (my bruised and battered Nikon digital camera) and I’m lurvin it! (posted some photos on my gallery for you to see) Oh, another btw, we’re moving to a new house next week and I’m thinking of stuff to put inside my bare room. Ugh.

To sum it all up, I am my usual ABNORMAL lately. One minute I’m happy, the next I’m sulking at one corner, trying to figure out what the hell I’m into these days. There’s just so many things in my mind right now that’s why I NEED A DIVERTION. or something new. Something not usual to me so that I could maximize the days I’m living here on this planet. Nyahaha.

Haaay Anna. Pakdulon ta karon. Ka-buang sa imo.

♥♥♥

I wish everyone could experience true love; the feeling of being
so physically and emotionally wrapped around someone who treats you
like your the most amazing thing in the world. Someone who calls you
back after they say goodbye because they just want to hear your voice
again. Someone who unexpectedly shows up at your house when your sick
to give you roses and a feel better kiss. Someone who tells you they
love you & they will always be there and sticks to their word.
Someone who kisses you not only on your lips but on your nose, forhead,
and cheek as well. Someone who sees you as a real person with real
feelings and not as a sex object. Someone who runs up to you, picks you
up and spins you around. Someone who grabs your hand, looks into your
eyes and says "I want to be with you for the rest of my life". Someone
who can give you butterflies just by touching your hand. Someone who
loves you for who you are. I wish everyone could experience this at
least once in there life. find someone who makes you smile & don’t give up on them. ♥

something to think about.

I believe that everything happens for
a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go
wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right. You believe less
so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes
good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

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and sometimes, we just have to stop.

Sometimes you have to test someone. Not cause you don`t trust
them, but to see how much they`ll sacrifice for you. & sometimes
you have to let them go; not cause you suddenly stopped loving them,
but to see if they love you enough to come back..

~*~*~*~

She will smile that smile and she will laugh that laugh She will look at you and say With a perfectly straight face that
everything is fine. But in her heart; in her soul and in her head. It’s
not. Nothing is, but that doesn’t matter. Because she’s going to suck
it up and hide it all Because she doesn’t want to burden any one else
with her problems and her fears; she’s done listening to liars who say
they care.

sunday bloody sunday

I can’t believe the news today
Oh, I can’t close my eyes and make it go away
How long, how long must we sing this song?
How long, how long?
Tonight, we can be as one tonight

Broken bottles under children’s feet
And bodies strewn across the dead end street
But I won’t heed the battle call
It puts my back up
Puts my back up against the wall

Sunday, bloody Sunday
Sunday, bloody Sunday
Sunday, bloody Sunday
Sunday, bloody Sunday

And the battle’s just begun
There’s many lost, but tell me who has won
The trench is dug within our hearts
And mothers, children, brothers, sisters torn apart

Sunday, bloody Sunday
Sunday, bloody Sunday

How long, how long must we sing this song?

How long, how long?

And it’s true we are immune
When fact is fiction and TV reality
And today the millions cry
We eat and drink while tomorrow they die, yeah

I wipe the tears from your eyes
I wipe your tears away
(Tonight, tonight)
I wipe your tears away
(Tonight, tonight)
I wipe your tears away
(Tonight, tonight)
I wipe your bloodshot eyes
(Tonight, tonight)

Sunday, bloody Sunday
Sunday, bloody Sunday
Sunday, bloody Sunday
(The real battle just begun)
Sunday, bloody Sunday
(To claim the victory Jesus won on…)

Sunday, bloody Sunday
Sunday, bloody Sunday

shake this awful feeling

Oh the brilliant mistakes that you seem to make always push me away
And now you’re stepping on my feet,
Stepping on my feet
‘Cause you were never on my side

So I’ll throw my thoughts into the sea
Where no one will ever find
And your marvelous episodes of pain
Will very soon be mine

I can’t seem to shake this awful feeling
You wore, you wore, you wore me out
And I can’t believe

You say your mind is a terrible thing to waste
What good is mine if I’m locked up in a cage?
I was hoping you could help me out of here
So I could finally disappear

I’ll throw my thoughts into the sea
Where no one will ever find

I can’t seem to shake this awful feeling
You wore, you wore, you wore me out
And I can’t seem to
I can’t seem to shake this awful feeling
You wore, you wore, you wore me out
And I can’t believe

And no I can’t seem to shake
This awful feeling

So I’ll throw my thoughts into the sea
Where no one will ever find
And your marvelous episodes of pain
Will very soon be mine

damaged - tlc

I know I’m kinda strange, to you sometimes
Don’t always say, what’s on my mind
You know that I’ve been hurt, by some guy
But I don’t wanna mess up this time

And I really really really care
And I really really really want you
And I think I’m kinda scared
Cos I don’t want to lose you
If you really really really care
Then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It’s nothing to you

My heart’s at a low
I’m so much to manage
I think you should know that
I’ve been damaged
I’m falling in love
There’s one disadvantage
I think you should know that I’ve been damaged

I might look through your stuff, for what I don’t wanna find
Or I might just set you up, to see if you’re all mine
I’m a little paranoid, from what I’ve been through
Don’t know what you got yourself into

And I really really really care (and I care about you so much)
And I really really really want you (I really do want you)
And I think I’m kinda scared (but I’m scared with every touch)
Cos I don’t want to lose you (cos I don’t want to lose you)
If you really really really care (if you care for me like you say)
Then maybe you can hang through (then maybe you can hang through)
I hope you understand (I hope you understand)
It’s nothing to you (it’s nothing to you, you)

My heart’s at a low (low)
I’m so much to manage
I think you should know that (I think you should know)
I’ve been damaged
I’m falling in love (I’m falling in love)
There’s one disadvantage
I think you should know that I’ve been damaged (I think you should know that)

straightjacket feeling

Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it’s stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you’re the problem and you can’t feel
Try this on, straight-jacket feeling
so maybe I won’t be alone
Take back now, my life you’re stealing

Yesterday was over
Today I’m fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you’d be
That face is staring holes in me again,
but today I’m fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I’m holding on by letting go of you

the way we cared for, our time.

There’s a rule in the book that says
It’s got to be fun
I hate to admit but my feelings have changed
Everybody expects to hear a love song
Love can’t come from something baby that never was

And I’m leavin behind
The you in my mind
Though I know it’s new
It’s something I’ll try
And I’ll always remember
The way that we cared for
Our time, our time

There’s a time and a place where thoughts are discovered
A package of ten all the sheets that I need
What I call a gift can’t be given to many
But loving a friend, baby, just ain’t the same

Well I’m leavin behind
The you in my mind
Though I know it’s new
It’s something I’ll try
And I’ll always remember
The way that we cared for
Our time, our time, our time

Sorrow hangs like a halo, baby on my head
But regret will never fill my vacant heart, no

Well I’m leavin behind
The you in my mind
Though I know it’s new
It’s something I’ll try
And I’ll always remember
The way that we cared for

I’m leavin behind
The you in my mind
Though I know it’s new
It’s something I’ll try
And I’ll always remember
The way that we cared for
Our time, our time