IDLE MODE
I just came to ponder on the thought of me just being in a whirlwind these past few days. Seriously, it has been hell, although hell was much more comfortable compared to what I’m aboard to now, I think. A week is not fun. A week + 5 days, ugh..won’t someone kill me instead. I try to not get affected but how can you not be affected? ugh. Time passes and days change , certainly no one knows what’s going to happen a minute after. CHANGE IS INEVITABLE. All I know is that, I’m on hold. Great. Just great. Lucky for me, I’ve things to keep me busy..issues to argue and resolve, people to turn my attention to, family to love and friends to support me as I go through this. ALL OF THIS. I cannot bear to see myself sulking in one corner, asking myself questions I repeatedly answered myself over and over. I am sick of it. I am tired. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. Sigh. There’s a tinge of hope left. I just wish it lasts.
In other more positive news, tomorrow, I hit North. EXCITED! LadyGaGa mode + AAR with the ghettobitch. HAH. I love her to bits after that gruelling incident with the REGAL MEANIE. 
PETIX MODE UNTIL SUNDAY! Wooooooo! It really feels great to accomplish such given tasks. Things that you never thought you’d do and be done with. PORTFOLIO, for instance. HAH! SUCK ON THAT MS. ***** :))
I am not used to sleeping early anymore. I got used to sleeping when the sun is up cos of that Gossip Grillz stint I pulled off for the Villacarlos’. Good karma, I know..though sleeping at 6am = NOT GOOD. 
Anywhoo, that’s all.
it has been a while
last night i got so bored that i visited my old blog at blospot.com. I couldn’t imagine how time flew so fast. Reading all those posts and laughing at each one of them made me realize that a lot has changed..and i mean alot. I grew up to be more level-headed, mature and focused compared to how mediocre, shallow and inconsistent I was based on the posts I wrote the year of 2004-2006. My jaw dropped completely when I read the post I wrote about makeup. MAKEUP?!? WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING?! :)) and my ADDICTION TO VANITY and BEING CLEAN?? who in their right senses would want to dig deep as to how I CLEANSE, TONE and MOISTURIZE every freakin day of the week??? =)) Even I, myself wouldn’t want to know that! :)) It’s just weird seeing and reading those posts..more so, knowing that I WAS THE ONE WHO WROTE IT. HA-HA! It also made me realize that I was a hundred and one percent close-minded when I talked about the dark days of our family. I felt all the guilt as I run down all the meanest things I wrote, especially with regards to my grandma. It’s sad, I know..but that’s how the cookie crumbles. I was also in despair that time. Hey, at least now I grew to accept every situation open-mindfully. Why? because time flies and things change - and that’s the beauty of life. But you know what? there’s just this teeny bit of matter that has gotten to my attention..Guys, it has come to my senses that..I still am the CRAZY ANNA everyone’s accustomed to..and that is, by far, the only thing that will forever remain CONSTANT. HAHA! And, as the time, the days, the weeks, the months and the years roll by, I WILL get even more CRAZIER and CRAZIER - a nincompoop, perhaps? HAHA. Not unless, I get knocked down, punched to the ground, head-locked and stumbled over, that I get AMNESIA and forget my name or maybe magically turn into a frog. That’s the only time I’d lie low. HAHA! Oh well, you guys just pray that I get a concussion or something, those that heal in like a month or so..in order for me to maximize the days I’m living here on this planet making up for all the nasty things I did to all of you. HAHA! KIDDING! labs ko kayo, hihih 
..I think I’m having a concussion already..hence, this senseless blog.nyahaha.
HEY! i missed blogging!
visit my old blog, it’s at
http://bitterbliss.blogspot.com
ANG TUMAWA, BAOG. kthankyou!
on times like these..
on times like these, when people whom you thought you know let you down..it makes you appreciate your FAMILY and your true friends more..better..way better than you thought
10 things to make you a better person
1.
Always make time to talk about how your day went. Even ten or fifteen
minutes spent in conversation can help the two of you stay in touch and
feel closer.
2.Understand that there
IS such thing as a good argument. As long as honest feelings were
expressed and eventually understood, and as long as there was some
conclusion where both partners believed that something was
accomplished, then you had a successful argument. Extremely abusive
language, sustained hostility, or open threats are NOT part of a good
argument.
3. Don’t forget to
maintain the "little courtesies", such as saying "please" and "thank
you" and generally showing respect and recognition for everyday things.
4. Never rely on your partner (or anyone else) to make you happy. Only you can do that.
5.
Do not assume that your partner will automatically know what your
feelings, needs, wants, and preferences are, or what mood you are in.
6.
In a healthy relationship, both partners are always growing and
improving. Healthy relationships should bring out the best in us. They
should inspire, motivate, and enhance our creativity and well-being.
7.
Learn how to accept the natural ups and downs of a relationship.
Nothing is perfect, and love will always be accompanied by a certain
amount of hurt, tension, frustration, misunderstanding and jealousy.
8.
Recognize some of the differences between males and females. MEN: Women
enjoy conversation, communicating in groups, and expressing detail
verbally. Men enjoy variety, respond well to good-natured challenge,
and place a high value on personal space and privacy.
9.
Every relationship can benefit from a periodic change of pace. Try a
new restaurant. Take a trip to a nearby location chosen at random. Rent
a hotel room even if you have privacy at home. Experiment with fantasy.
Learn how to be playfully unpredictable. Creativity will keep a
relationship fresh.
10. Give
yourself reinforcement after you have successfully tried one of the
techniques to improve your relationship, even if the outcome was not
exactly what you wanted. It is very important to be "self-rewarding."
BETCH!!!!!
pagod nako. pagod nako. pagod nako. the past days were a BLURRRR.. ang dami kong iniisip. ang daming gumugulo sa utak ko. PLEASE LET IT ALL STOP!!!! :”(
pagod nako. pagod nako. pagod nako. pagod nako talaga. ayaw ko na. nagsasawa nako. wala namang bago. walang bago. wala na atang magbabago :”(
PAGOD NAKO!!! physically, mentally.. most especially EMOTIONALLY. *sniff sniff*
HELP? o_O
LUMBAR INSTABILITY
I just want to share to you guys that as of 9:00 am of Wednesday, July 30, I was diagnosed with LUMBAR INSTABILITY. Meaning that one of the 3 columns of my spine has been damaged. Damn. How did that happen? IDK. Hehe. Could be the result of my prolonged sitting infront of the pc all day. HAHA! or, bad posture cos I’ve been slouching for ages. Hmm. I’ve been complaining this lower back pain (right side) for almost half a year already. At first they thought it was kidney stones cos they suspected it to be flank pain..but they were wrong. The doctor suggested that I have it checked by a Chiropractor or have it rehabed. But since I was taking painkillers that time, I immediately thought that after the pain was gone, I’d be okay. WRONG! I became dependent to it that I forgot to have it checked by the Chiro. Hehe. With that tiny mistake, here I am, complaining backaches every night. I swear I was crying last Friday cos it was that painful. Also, I thought my kidney stones recurred. Hmm. Doctora-pretty-handrwiting said that it wasn’t flank pain (symptoms of kidney stones) although they did see blood in my urine but because I was expecting my menses, she said that I have a repeat urinalysis after I have my period. Haaaay. And she said that there’s no reason for me to not have my therapy sessions now that it’s clearly obvious on my x-ray sheets that my lumbar is, well..unstable.
I Googled LUMBAR INSTABILITY awhile ago and it scared me.
"Clinical instability
of the lumbar spine associated with fracture/dislocation is well
recognised and usually requires surgical intervention. Orthopaedic
surgeons, medical practitioners and physiotherapists have long
realised that a less severe form of instability exists which can
cause debilitating symptoms, while not displaying the dramatic
neurological implications that are associated with
fracture/dislocation."
TAENA HA. surgery?! Haaay. Sana lang therapy lang tlga makakagamot nito. PRAY FOR ME GUYS. Thanks!
trust. faith. hope.
The
tough thing about following your heart is what people forget to
mention.. that sometimes your heart brings you to places you shouldn’t
be which makes it scary. But, if you’re into a little risk, it’s sometimes wiser to follow the heart rather than that of the mind for reasons not even the mind could explain. But of course, as we all would say, you need a little bit of help from the mind to make it work. Sigh..I just wish my decisions regarding ALL OF THIS wouldn’t cause me more pain than it already did.
It all boils down to my trust, my faith and my hope.
Lord, please help me as I go through all this. Let things fall into place.
GUTOM
I just want to share with you what I wrote on my short synopsis for Economics on
the documentary Sir Adorable-h (ador-ablehhh) made us watch
last week entitled
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GUTOM: A POVERTY DOCUMENTATION IN THE PHILIPPINES. A not-so-old short docu dated back
in 2006. Well, it was actually I-Witness’ and Jay Taruc’s documentary
and not Sir Adorable’s hehe! Pretty interesting. Kinda made me wonder
why the hell did I miss that on tv. *scratches nose and pouts* hehehe!
The short documentary was about GUTOM (hunger), a factual assessment of what’s happening here in our country. Reporter Jay Taruc volunteered to immerse himself for 7 days among the families who were part of the growing reality that is hitting the Philippines. There were 3 Baranggays that were featured in the film, mainly Baranggay Pinagsabugan, Baranggay Baseco and Pier – Port Area, all of which depicted what SWS was referring to, “more than 2 million families experience hunger and that is one out of every six Filipinos.” These families wake up every day battling the fight against hunger. They are deprived of eating three square meals a day. Parents strive hard, work non-stop and are paid with merely P100 to P200 a day for the service they render. The money in turn, is spent for a “decent” meal. They have learned to stretch out the few pesos they earn just to ease their hunger. Families feast on rice and soup or even bread and coffee — not knowing that the single meal they take from the money they earn, may be the last meal they will have to eat for the rest of the remaining hours of the day.
“Altanghap” and “Kaninbaw” are just everyday words for these people. They cope with hunger through eating rice mixed with soup (kaninbaw) and breakfast-lunch-dinner combined into a single meal (altanghap) every day of the week. Children become the core victims of the said pattern of eating because parents are not aware of the health risks this kind of living can bring forth to. Kids become prone to sickness in which makes them relatively weak and small. This brings forth, malnutrition to the poor.
The SWS states that an average poor Filipino family misses eating one day every three months. But as to what the documentary narrates to all of us, it is clearly FAR worse than that of what is indicated in the survey.
Hmmmm.. so ano? pasalamat na ba kayo na kumakain kayo ng maayos at namumhay ng matiwasay sa inaraw- araw? 
I know I did.
blind date meme
So, say you were meeting a new person–blind date, new friend, who
knows. And you wanted them to have some idea of what kind of person you
are, and who you are. But you can’t actually tell them in so many
words. Instead, you have to give them a box, with a dozen things in it
for them to look at/read/listen to/taste/whatever. What would you put
in the box? And a copy of your journal or a link to your LJ would be
the same thing as just telling them directly, yourself, so that’s not
allowed.
1. my emo glasses. the one’s I’m using now just so I could see the world clearly. haha!
2. my staple green/ khaki Chuck Taylor’s (yoko ilagay yung pink ko baka di ibalik. bweheh)
3. Koreanovela DVDs (errgad, trashy haha!)
4. my iPod Video (with a note that says, "I want it back or else")
5. pearl earrings and that little star earrings that looks like pearl also.
6. ZenZest Tangerine Eau De Toilette. You’ll know it’s me when you smell my perfume. It’s my staple perfume for 3 years already.
7. the cute watch I’m wearing now cos I’m a big fan of watches. (tss.)
8. cd’s of my pirated mp3’s with songs that range from punk to rock to r&b to emo.
9. Hershey’s Kissables
10. Kinder Bueno
11. my passport. although this survey says that the things shouldn’t have any identity on it.. soo.. a passport without a picture and a name, perhaps? hehe! (pwede ba yun? :P)
12. Bad Girl’s Guide to the Open Road by Cameron Tuttle
the jamestown story - and then I turned seven
I’ve been waiting and patiently praying, for this moment all my life
And I never, thought I’d ever, feel so glad to be alive…
I’ve spent so many years dreaming of this, I’m long overdue
And finally all my dreams are happening, in an ideal form of you…
Let’s take this moment, squeeze it and hold it, for the rest of our lives,
then the time will never come to say goodbye…
I may not be perfect, but I’ll always be there
Because I know you’re worth it, you’re the answer, to all of my prayers…
♥♥♥
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